Energizer Bunny

During our Pittsburgh trip, we played an ice breaker name game....I'm sure you've played it before. "Tell us your name, with an adjective describing you using the same letter as your name." I introduced myself as 'energizer bunny Erin.'

At the time, I wasn't so sure that was an appropriate name. However, I've realized that I am a go-aholic, in addition to being an overachiever. A serve-until-there's-nothing-at-all-left kind of person. The epitome of an energizer bunny.

What does it take for me to realize this fully about myself? Oh, just a minor meltdown and the words of a wise friend in the flow of the spirit. "Erin, you just seem so exhausted, not yourself. You've been giving so much of yourself, all summer, to all kinds of people. When are you going to take time to recharge your own batteries?"

Doesn't she know I'm an energizer bunny? :)

But she's right. I have mentored physical therapy students at work, chaperoned two student summer trips, spent time with students, fielded some family drama, and reached out to some new friends. And serving isn't even one of my top spiritual gifts.

I think what I am truly struggling with is balancing God's call in my life and our relative schedules for this calling. I feel like this summer, God has revealed so much to me that He has planned for me. It's so exciting and scary at the same time! And I, being the overachiever I am, decided I could probably get it all done before Christmas. Who needs the time frame of the sovreign creator of the universe when you are an overachiever and perfectionist to boot?

I know that I am not saved by works, that God could not love me more or less based on what I do. But what about all of the exciting plans and ideas He is burdening on my heart? I can't come up with those kinds of ideas without His inspiration. Plus, faith without works is dead. I know, deep down, that I am called to do some pretty awesome things in the months and years ahead for the advancement of His kingdom.

I don't have a clear-cut answer for this dilemma...let me know if you have valuable advice from the Spirit. I have decided to put a few projects on the backburner and rededicate more time for friends, quiet time, and personal growth. Anyone willing to be an accountability buddy for me?

Time for this energizer bunny to recharge her batteries.